Hurt feelings... Loose ends

Dealing with the feelings that come up when an ex gets engaged, moves away, or vacations with his new girlfriend make me feel jealous... I am super happy with my geek charming and my married bestie; so why am I feeling this way? Is it my Aphrodite complex? I seriously have a complex that makes me think I that every man should be in love with me... And when they're not, I get jealous. It's crazy, I know, but if I don't emote these feelings, or express them, they end up consuming me. At least I now know what it is. I seriously do not want to be with any of the men. I just want them to want me. Cookie and crazy but it's me!!!

The crazy game

Well hello non readers,
     In today's update there is much to be explained. First, a group I used to associate myself with blackballed me. I felt horrible. And want to know why I was eliminated. Mostly because I didn't donate to their for profit organization. Ugh.
     So,  the group completely excluded me from a meetup. My feelings are super hurt, then I find out that at the meetup, I was mentioned. Furthering my upset. I don't know how to process these feelings of rejection. Once again, I'm the social outcast.
     Only, the others members dig me because I am semi demi normal. For once, being the cool girl gets me ousted. I just can't win!
This is silverplatters signing out... Oh but all the other stuff is fabulous! Still have radio boyfriend and married bestie! Ciao!