My Obsession continues

So, I waited more and just assumed that he was done. On Saturday I texted, So we're done right? Which led to a barrage of messages and a phone call. He told me again not to worry. Then, he adopts a puppy. I went ballistic. A puppy is not a sign of divorce. A puppy is a sign of full blown commitment.

I tried texting, WTF? Are you working things out? No response. Then I ask, are you staying together? No response. Then later, your actions don't match your words. No response, then one last one for the night, I guess you're not going to give me closure. Still nothing. So I continued in the morning, are we done now? no response. Followed by were you trying to fuck with me? Cuz it worked. No response. Then I get an email, this situation is becoming unhealthy... I texted too much... And even though he wanted to be with me, he couldn't make me happy because I need and want a lot of attention. Oh and he never thought the dog was a big deal, seriously, that's what pushed me over the edge....

So I was pissed, then I had a change of heart. I want him in my life, maybe never as a boyfriend, but maybe as a friend boy with benefits? That's more my style anyway.

What do you think?

Silverplatters signing off...

no friggin' clue

Well after my last entry, I heard from the man that hadn't replied. He told me he has been neglectful and asked me to be patient with him. What the F does that mean? Does it mean sit at home and wait? Does it mean, don't wait, forget about him, or does it mean nothing. Just live and if he's in my life, yay! And if not not YAY!

I can't believe after pouring my heart out for weeks I get. Wait! I really don't get it.

Tis all

Silverplatters signing off

when it all falls down

Another attempt to blog... let's see, as for updates I don't have much. I again fell in love with an obscure semi famous person. Those never seem to work out. This time the guy was married and lived in a far away land called Texas. I hate Texas.

He was charming and well spoken, he had me at left handed and just went on from there. I went my merry way and never thought I'd hear from him again, however my school girl crush was gaining mass.

I decided to text him that I had amassed this crush and not to worry, I knew he was married and really was not interested in a semi crazed California girl who likes Star Wars and Princess Bride, but I was wrong. He also had a crush on a crazy California girl, he apologized for being in a weird period in his life and I was left dumbfounded.

So what did I do? I became obsessed, more crazy and a little scary. I was trying everything to get this guy's attention, which of course landed me here... Alone, in my condo in CA writing this blog.

I don't know where I went wrong... perhaps it was the over zealous texting, the frequent emails, the direct messages, and the phone calls. OK I was a lot obsessed. At least I know that when someone is not interested to stop?

I admit I went overboard, but it seemed fine we were chatting regularly, until he just stopped...

That's when I went crazy and tried to figure out how to make the guy love me... That is one thing I don't think I'll ever learn.

When it stops for no reason, let it go... don't try to get a reason, don't try to follow up, just let it go and continue on.

With that, I cut my losses, which was only a few weeks. I apologize. I move forward! I sent him the apology message. It read, I am sorry for the persistent texts, emails and direct messages. I had an insight, it was cool. Have a great week.

With that I continue on my way...

Next Week movies!!! Peace

This is silverplatters signing off...