Hello Non-readers,
In today's excitement, my drama with my bestie increases. Did I mention that he wrote me a scathing email that really hurt me? He stated that my decision to not have children was because I was jealous. Was it projection? Was it because he was secretly in love with me? Who knows? All I know is that I have to get over my hurt feelings. I have a hard time, I keep thinking about the past and how I laid my heart out to him, only for him to stomp on it, then later tell me that, "if only"... That really chops me.
As for my awesome boyfriend, his parents will not accept me because I am not Christian. Oh well, so in the end he will probably dump me, or dump his parents. Which I find highly unlikely. When I hear how upset his parents would be, it breaks my heart. But, I will not be a Christian. I disagree with any religion. At least I did the right thing and kept him away from my family, that way, when it is over, they really never knew him. Sad, but true.
I never knew this was the path that was set out for me. I didn't get the marriage and family, but I got a fucked up couple of relationships that make me learn in a variety of ways. I love my boyfriend, and I love my bestie although they are messed up!!!
This is Silverplatters signing out!!!!
